i give up.
I really don't know what I should do. School is screwed up, relationship is screwed up, social life is screwed up. There's absolutely nothing I can do to make things right again. Maybe being submissive will work.. After 2 months of projects, fights, quarrels, fatigue and what-nots, you will think that's the end of all the bad stuffs but no, really. It's only the beginning and there's more to come. My body feels like a vacuum - the soul in there is already sucked out of me. Everything seems meaningless. The precious thing you called life, holds no meaning to me right at the moment. Sometimes I wish I can just sleep all the problems away. Yeah, the typical me. But now I wish that Depression will just take me, and save me. Yeah, get ready to be engulfed in darkness. Humans are just such complex creatures that you can never fully understand a person.. why some people do the things they do although they know it's stupid to do so. They are self-deceiving. I'm not ready for the world. I have no more energy to deal with whatever's coming. Blow me now, and I will break. Maybe more sleeping will help since that's what I'm lacking. Maybe I'll just sleep the days away..
We can work things out -4:18 PM
Thursday, August 21, 2008