I did badly for it. I know it. VERY badly. I'll be really happy even if the marker just give me a pass.





Ha. Went to school for that ITAB test just now. Whee! Over le! Hmmm. No idea if I can get an A for that. I have no As at all. I hope I can get one frm ITAB. Ha. But didn't know how to do quite a number of stuff just now. Grade A = Hopes dashed. Sighs. CRS test tomorrow and Jap test on friday. My goD. And 4 big big tests = exams nxt week & nxt nxt week. I haven't started flipping my fom lecture notes. HELP! Like Siying, I need motivation from people to study. Ha. Bless me~





I can't resist the temptation to blog!!!!!!!!!!!!! BLAH!!!! Alright quick updates. Thursday after school I went to library to study. Bahhhhh. But the com lab's so noisy. I hardly read anything at all. Ha. Then went to West Mall and met up with Qi, her brother and her sis. Then we walked around trying to look for a suitable present for Von. Lekteng joined us after some time. ok. blablablabla. We reached West Coast park. COOL!! I saw my classmates. A few of them. Ha. Really happy to see them. xD I just miss sec sch's life so much. +.+ Hmm. Then we chat and eat blablablabla. Ha. I'm lazy to type all the details. =x Then I went home together with Qi, Lek teng and Chaiting + her bf. Hmm. Then I got down at Toh Guan's bus stop and waited for Dear to come. -walked to my house- Yay! He tucked me into bed. xD Then the nxt morning, woke up soooooo early. It's qing ming! Then kor kor took my grandma's ashes frm a temple in sin ming and transferred it to a hakka "temple". Ha. I don't think it's a temple. We stayed there for 3 hours and my eyes were tearing. THe smoke's horrible. Aiya! Can't talk le. GOing westmall soon to check movie time. Laters!





Ha. My lappy is sooooo screwed up. Hope it spoils. Then I won't be able to come online and waste my time. =x Anyway, there are 3 major tests next week and exams the next next week. Only started a lil' of accountings. *_* Sighs. Grades so poor. I only hope that I can get into the course I want next academic year - tourism management. For those who chose this course, don't snatch my place!!! Ha.






You came from heaven. Your gole in life is to help
others and to make the world a better place.
Some call you weak, but in reality your soul is
very strong. If only more people were like
you...

Where did you come from?
brought to you by Quizilla


Ha. FOund this by random. Decided to put this here. Blah~ I'll change my blogskin again after exams. I have no idea what my fingers are doing now. Ha. Everything I've typed here is abit weird. ANyways, I'll go wash up now~





Awwww. I'm in a dilemma now. Can I ask you guys a question? Should I have short fringe or should I not? Post ur views in my tagboard ok? My friends told me to let my hair down today. They said it's nicer. bahhhh. So weird walking around in school without tying up my hair. HA! Should have a shorter fringe still?


Ok anways, my darn CD teacher is so darn bias and stingy. Ha. Hadn't heard of anyone failing CD written test before. Maybe Jolene and I are the few cases. And she showed biasness right in front of me and my 4 other friends. BLess her~ Dear came to my house yesterday. Whee!! So fun. xD Hehe. Oh ya anyways, post ur views in my tagboard ok? ThAnks! xD





It's pacc com lab lesson now!! Ha. Just popped by to comment about myself. I'm so slack!!!!!!!!!! Exams are coming and I can actually spend 4 hours everyday visiting blogs. *_* GUYS!! I need some motivation to study!!! Ha. Can anyone help me? +.+ Alright. And I also wanna tell everyone that I have the sweetest dear dear ever. xD





I'm shouting
crying
and screaming inside
with all my might
but who can hear me?






Ok bloggie, I have lots of stuff to say so.. be patient with me ya? Ha! -talking nonsense- Anyway, first issue to address today is my NEW blogskin!! Yay!!! Jolene Siow Huimin frm DBA 1A/23 helped me change it! Ha! THanks so much girl!!! xD I took away the midi I don't know why. Ha. Anyway I'm in school now. -3hours break before the next lesson starts- *_* And I'm wearing this tube dress. Many of my classmates have been trying to take my jacket off. HA!

The 2nd issue is about my godsister. She's one year older than I am and is also currently studying at SP. And she's pregnant. You may say it's fine. Ya. I think it's fine too. But her parents think otherwise. They told her to abort the baby. What kinda parents are they? DUH. Is it shameful to have a baby? I don't think so. Anyway, my godsister is having her wedding during mid March. And I'm going to be her bridesmaid. OMG. *_* -scared- LOL. Anyway, $$$ is going to be a problem for them I guess. Both of them are still studying and it's kinda difficult to do 3 things at a time - studying, working and taking care of the baby.

3rd thing, Siying's grandmother passed away. Girl ah, jie ai shun bian. Everyone has to go someday and I think they won't suffer from old age problems too much after they go. Anyway, hope everyone will live their lives fully be it having a newborn baby at a young age, or losing a loved one.





Hey hey!~!! Blogging in school now. Ha. Econs lecture is around 10am. So I have to hurry abit. Ha. I FAILED MY CD MODULE!!!!! Duh. First test I've failed. That's so darn horrible. How can I actually fail this module? Don't know how I did it too. Zzz. After the CD presentation, I went to FC3 to look for my EPI friends. SQ, Cheryl, Dave & Jiani. Then we started doing the project. Ha. We took only around 1 hr to complete the script. That's fast. Then after that SQ, Cheryl and I decided to go to City Hall that area to shop for our presentation tops. Hmmm. We walked for 2 hours but couldn't find any suitable ones. So we ended up at Suntec City's THIS FASHION. Ha. I bought a presentation top there. Then SQ bought hers at Dano. We then proceeded to FAR EAST to look for Cheryl's dress. COOL!!! Far east. DUH! All of us regretted not going there earlier cos' there's like so many more clothes for us. What I remembered was that, SQ took lots of clothes for Cheryl and I to try on. Just like our mama. Ha! Then Cheryl managed to find her dress! I bought a tube top, SQ bought a tank top. Then I need a flair skirt. So both of them helped me pick LOTS. BUT...I looked too babyish in them. Ha. *_* While I was waiting for more skirts in the fitting room, SQ gave me this tube dress. When I went out of the fitting room for them to see, Cheryl's eyes were big. SQ was covering her mouth. DUH! Then I was going, "WHAT?" Cheryl said that it was very pretty. Funny thing is, all I could say was, "Pretty ah? I don't believe leh." Ha. Then SQ pulled me in front of a mirror and said, "Look la! It's so damn nice. Put a belt and it'll be nicer." Hmmm. This issue again. I know I looked nice in it. But somehow I just couldn't convince myself. It's hard for me too look for clothes sometimes cos' my top is flat. Ha. =x And my self confidence is just low. No matter how nice I looked in any shirts or dresses, somehow I have a way to tell myself that it's just not nice. I don't know whY! Gosh. An issue that must be resolved some day. Ok. Then both of them said that they're going to do a makeover for me one day. Ha. God bless~ But it's nice shopping with them. I bought the dress in the end. =) Hees. Then it was around 9pm and I haven't had my dinner. Anyway, I waited for Dear since I was around his working area. Then went home together with him.

GOT the shock of my life when I reached home. Dear bought MAC home whereas I have to eat my dinner. Lol. When I went into my brother's room, I was soooo shocked to see my 2 monkey cousins!!!!! OH NO!!! This spells trouble for me. Ha!! They are gonna stay in my house until Thursday. Ahhh!!! It means no peace until Thursday. No way am I gonna play monopoly with them again. Lol. Almost late for lecture now. I gtg!!! Tata~ Hees. Long entry!! XD





CD (Character Development)project rocks my socks. =x Oops. Ha. My group's doing a role play too. But it was sooooooooooooooooooo fUn!!! And last night I had a dream. I dreamt that Jay Chou KILLED A GIRL!!! NOOOOOoooooo!! And I was the cop. Jay Chou set up a maze so that it'll be difficult to look for him. THen I was trapped inside and there were lots of ferocious dogs. Ha. I duno how the ending was. Sorry guys. Dinnertime! CD's gonna be interesting tmr. xD Tata~ Jude Law. HA!





I screwed up my presentation and was almost late for it. NO preparation at all. HOW cool is that?





I'm so tired. When can everything end?
Yesterday CRS presentation, tmr FOM presentation, monday CD presentation, thursday EPI presentation. It's driving me crazy.
Went to Qi's house after school to borrow a presentation top.
Mine's too big. Really big. Even bigger than the one Qi has in her wardrobe.
Explored her room.
So damn nice. I want. xD
Went to MacDonald's.
We bought ice cream, french fries + a drink. total = $6.40. *_*
Chat quite a bit.
She looked like a Sec sch girl. Ha. Her uniform. So funny. =x
Then I walked home. Couldn't find my way home but I just walk anyway.
Then IT RAINED. Without any warning. +.+
Drenched. So hard to walk so I took shelter.
Reached home after 1 hr. MY GOD.
Tired. Gonna bathe and prepare for tmr's presentation.
Boring life.
I want dear. =(





Whee!!! Updating blog during stats com lesson. Hehes. xD DEAR CAN YOU PLEASE UPDATE YOUR BLOG!!!! +.+ We got back our econs test just now. YAY! 82. Finally not 60+ le. Ha. So my average marks should be a B or C I guess. I'm more than happy. xD Gonna have CRS presentation tmr. -sighs- I'm so scared. Lol. Don't like to speak in front of so many ppl. Hope everything ends well! Teacher's BACK. -gtg- OHH! One more thing. If you guys happen to check out the scoreboard of my quiz, saw someone got 100? Ha. That person cheated. He got 10 marks actually. CHEATERBUG! LOL!





So bored. *_* Lessons ended at 12 for a Friday!!!!! Amazing yeah? Came home early to slack. Ha! Nothing much to do but I guess I'm gonna help my CD group do the report right now. Kinda bored just now so I did a quiz! Leave your name even if you flunk my test ok? I'm cool with that. =) Ohh. Most importantly, be honest. xD Take my quiz from
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Anyway, Mel's IPOD rocks! xD





WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME?! Damn. hai. So tired. I hate myself.





2 presentations next week. -sighs-





writing this with an empty mind

life seems meaningless sometimes
all we do is eat and sleep
and think about why people do the things they do
what about those in school?
study
competing grades with peers

everything happens for a reason
i'm sick of everything
i wanna recede into this empty shell
and never come out
never meeting new people
never having to sow discords with one another.

i hate controversies.

loneliness.