HeY gUys!!! It's teacher's day todaY!! WOoOOoO! *CrazY ger* No idea why am I so excited when I'm still stuck at school. Hahaz. Basically, there are only 8 ppl attending classes today cos' the others all didn't come tO school. *Went visiting* Lolx. Kinda bored now so I'm using this computer in the library to update my bloGgie..Oh ya...have to talk about yesterday's IDEA presentation abit. It's screwed up....GRrrrrr..The teachers are kinda biased toO..Nothing to say about them. It's so stupid obvious. Lolx. Anyway...don't care le. As long as I get a pass for this module, I'm hapPy. Lolx. Ok...I'm going for another lesson soOn le..sO bored..Be back tOnite~






Hmmm..so coOl..My first lesson of the day only lasted for like 20mins? xD Now kinda bored..nothing to do except my PAcC tutorial. Yawns. Lolx. And I have no idea how to dO.. Anyways, saw Ks with a ger just now. Wah. So fast.. Lolx. Got over him le. MovIng on!!! ^^ I have band practice later..So don't think I'll be able to update again. Ok..nothing else to say. HahaZ. Shall go off and rOt with my friends now. Lolx. Tata~






It made me cry. Read on to find out why..

A fatal misunderstanding and the person who love me the most in this world is gone forever....This is a true story, taken from "Family" (dictated by LD, edited by LSX,translated by SaFe).

Cruel misunderstandings one after another disrupted the blissful footsteps to our family. Our original intend of having Mother enjoy some quiet and peaceful moments in her remaining years with us went terribly wrong asdestiny's secret is finally revealed at a price, every thing became too late.Just two years after our marriage, hubby brought up the idea of asking Mother to move from the rural hometown and spend her remaining years with us. Hubby's father passed away while he was still very young. Mother endured much hardship and struggled all on her own to provide for him, see him through to a university degree. You could say that she suffered a great deal and did everything you could expect of a woman to bring hubby to where he istoday.I immediately agreed and started packing the spare room, which has a balconyfacing the South to let her enjoy the sunshine and plant some greenery. Hubby stood in the bright room, and suddenly just picked me up and startedspinning round and round. As I begged him to put me down, he said: "Lets gofetch mother." Hubby is tall and big sized and I love to rest on his chest and enjoy the feeling that he could pick me up at any moment put the tiny me into his pockets. Whenever we have an argument and both refuses to backdown, he would pick me up and spin me over his head continuously until I surrender and beg for mercy. I became addicted to this kind of panic-joyfeeling.Mother brought along her countryside habits and lifestyle with her. For example; I am so used to buying flowers to decorate the living room, she could not stand it and would comment: "I do not know how you young people spend your money, why do you buy flowers for? You also can't eat theflowers!" I smiled and said: "Mum, with flowers in the house, our mood will also become better." Mother continues to grumble away, and hubby smiled: "Mum, this is a city-people's habit; slowly you will get use to it."Mother stopped saying anything. But every time thereafter, whenever I came home with flowers, she would ask me how much it costs. I told her and shewould shake her head and express displeasure. Sometimes, when I come homewith lots of shopping bags, she would ask each and every item how much theycost, I would tell her honestly and she would get even more upset about it.Hubby playfully pinched my nose and said: "You little fool, just don't tell her the full price of everything would solve it." There begins the frictionto our otherwise happy lifestyle.Mother hates it most when hubby wakes up early to prepare the breakfast. Inyour view, how could the man of the house cook for the wife? At the breakfast table, mother facial expression is always like the dark clouds before a thunderstorm and I would pretend not to notice. She would use herchopsticks and make a lot of noise with it as her silent protest. As I am a dance teacher in the Children's Palace and is exhausted from a long day ofdancing around, I do not wish to give up the luxury of that additional few minutes in the comfort of my bed and hence I turned a deaf ear to all the protest mother makes.From time to time, mother would help out with some housework, but soon herhelp created additional work for me. For example: she would keep all kinds of plastic bags accumulating them so that she sell them later on, and that resulted in our house being filled with all the trash bags; she would scrimp ondish washing detergent when helping to wash the dishes and so as not to hurt her feelings, I would quietly wash they again. One day, late at night, mother saw me quietly washing the dishes, and "Bam" she slams her bedroom door and cried very loudly in her room. Hubby was placed in a difficultposition, and after that, he did not speak to me for that entire night. I pretended to be a spoilt child, tried acting cute, but he totally ignoredme. I got mad and asked him: "What did I do wrong?" Hubby stared at me andsaid: "Can't you just give in to her once? We couldn't possibly die eatingfrom a bowl however unclean it is, right?"After that incident, for a long period of time, mother did not speak to me and you can feel that there is a very awkward feeling hanging in the house. During that period of cold war, hubby was caught in dilemma as to who toplease. In order to stop her son from having to prepare breakfast, mothertook on the "all important" task of preparing breakfast without anyprompting. At the breakfast table, mother would look at hubby happily eatinghis breakfast and cast that reprimanding stare at me for having failed toperform my duty as a wife. To avoid the embarrassing breakfast situation, I resorted to buying my own breakfast on my way to work.That night, while in bed, hubby was a little upset and asked me: "LD, is it because you think that mum's cooking is not clean that's why you chose notto eat at home?" He then turned his back on me and left me alone in tears asfeeling of unfairness overwhelmed me. After some time, hubby sighed: "LD,just for me, can you have breakfast at home?" I am left with no choice butto return to the breakfast table.The next morning, I was having porridge prepared by mother and I felt a sudden churn in my stomach and everything inside seem to be rushing up mythroat. I tried to suppress the urge to throw up but I couldn't. I threwdown the bowl and rushed into the washroom and vomited everything out. Just as I was catching my breath, I saw mother crying and grumbling very loudlyin her dialect, hubby was standing at the washroom doorway staring at mewith fire burning in his eyes. I opened my mouth but no words came out of it, I really didn't mean it.We had our very first big fight that day; mother took a look at us, then stood up and slowly made her way out of the house. Hubby gave me a finalstare in the eye and followed mother down the stairs. For three days, hubby did not return home, not even a phone call. I was so furious, since motherarrived; I had been trying my best and putting up with her, what else do you want me to do? For no reason, I keep having the feeling to throw up and Isimply have not appetite for food, coupled with all the events happening at home, I was at the low point in my life. Finally, a colleague said: "LD, you look terrible, you should go and see a doctor."The doctor confirmed that I am pregnant. Now it became clear to me why I threw up that fateful morning, a sense of sadness floated through that otherwise happy news. Why didn't hubby, and mother who had been through thisbefore, thought of the possibility of this being the reason that day? At the hospital entrance, I saw my hubby standing there. It had only been threedays, but he looked haggard. I had wanted to turn and leave, but one look athim and my heart soften, I couldn't resist and called out to him. Hefollowed my voice and finally found me but he pretended that he doesn't knowme; he has that disgusted look in his eyes that cut right through my heart.I told myself not to look at him anymore, and hail a cab. At that moment, I have such a strong urge inside me to shout to my hubby: "Darling, I amhaving your baby!" and have him lift me up and spin me round in circles ofjoy. What I wanted didn't happen and as I sat in the cab, my tears startedrolling down. Why? Why our love couldn't even withstand the test of onefight? Back home, I lay on the bed thinking about my hubby, and thedisgusted look in his eyes. I cried and wet the corner of the blanket.That night, sound of the drawers opening woke me up. I switched on the lights and I saw hubby with tears rolling down his face. He was removing themoney. I stared at him in silence; he ignored me, took the bank deposit bookand some money and left the house. Maybe he really intends to leave me forgood. What a rational man, so clear-cut in love and money matters. I gave afew dried laugh and tears starting streaming down again. The next day, I didnot go to work. I wanted to clear this out and have a good talk with hubby. I reached his office and his secretary gave me a weird look and said: "Mr.Tan's mother had a traffic accident and is now in the hospital." I stoodthere in shock. I rushed to the hospital and by the time I found hubby,mother had already passed away. Hubby did not look at me, his face wasexpressionless.I looked at mother's pale white and thin face and I couldn't control the tears in my eyes. My god, how could this happen? Throughout the funeral,hubby did say a single word to me, with only the occasional disgusted stareat me. I only managed to find out brief facts about the accident from otherpeople. That day, after mother left the house, she walked in dazed towardthe bus stop, apparently intending to go back to her old house back in the countryside. As hubby ran after her, she tried to walk faster and as shetried to cross the street, a public bus came and hit her...I finally understood how much hubby must hate me, if I had not thrown up that morning, if we had not quarreled, if...In his heart, I am indirectly the killer of his mother.Hubby moved into mother's room and came home every night with a strong liquor smell on him. And me, I am buried under the guilt and self pity andcould hardly breathe. I wanted to explain to him, tell him that we are goingto have our baby soon, but each time, I saw the dead look in his eyes, all the words I have at the brink of my mouth just fell back in. I had rather he hit me real hard or give me a big and thorough scolding though none of these events happening had been my fault at all.Many days of suffocating silence went by and as the days went by, hubby came home later and later. The deadlock between us continues, we were livingtogether like strangers who don't know each other. I am like the dead knotin his heart.One day, I passed by a western restaurant, looking into the glass window, I saw hubby and a girl sitting facing each other and he very lightly brushedher hair for her, I understood what it meant. After recovering from thatmoment of shock, I entered the restaurant, stood in front of my hubby andstared hard at him, not a tear in my eyes. I have nothing to say to him, and there is no need to say anything.The girl looked at me, looks at hubby, stands up and wanted to go, hubby stretched out his hand and stopped her. He stared back at me, challengingme. I can only hear my slow heart beat, beating, one by one as if at thebrink of death. I eventually backed down, if I had stood that any longer, Iwill collapse together with the baby inside me.That night, he did not come home, he had chosen to use that as a way to indicate to me: Following mother's death so did our love for each other. Hedid not come home anymore after that. Sometimes, when I returned home fromwork, I can tell that the cupboard had been touched - he had returned totake some of his stuff.I no longer wish to call him; the initial desire to explain everything to him vanished.I lived alone; I go for my medical checkups alone, my heart breaks again and again every time I see a guy carefully helping his wife through the physicalexamination. My office colleagues hinted to me to consider aborting thebaby, I told them No, I will not. I insisted on having to this baby, perhaps it is my way of repaying mother for causing her death.One day, I came home and I saw hubby sitting in the living room. The whole house was filled with cigarette smoke. On the coffee table, there was thispiece of paper. I know what it is all about without even looking at it. In the two months plus of living alone, I have gradually learned to find peace within myself. I looked at him, removed my hat and said: "You wait a while, I will sign." He looked at me, mixed feelings in his eyes, just like mine.As I hang up my coat, I keep repeating to myself "You cannot cry, you cannot cry..." my eyes hurt terribly, but I refused to let tears come out from there.After I hung up my coat, hubby's eyes stared fixed at my bulging tummy. I smiled, walked over to the coffee table and pull e paper towards me. Without even looking at what it says, I signed my name on it and pushed the paper tohim."LD, you are pregnant?"Since mother's accident, this is the first time he spoke to me. I could not control my tears any further and they fell like raindrops. I said: "Yes, butits ok, you can leave now." He did not go, in the dark, we sat, facing eachother. Hubby slowly moved over me, his tears wet the blanket. In my heart, everything seems so far away, so far that even if I sprint, I could neverreach them. I cannot remember how many times he repeated "sorry" to me, Ihad originally thought that I would forgive him, but now I can't. In the western restaurant, in front of that girl, that cold look in his eyes, I will never forget, ever. We have drawn such deep scares in each other's heart. For me, its unintentional; for him, totally intentional. I had been waiting for this moment of reconciliation, but I realized now, what had gone past is gone forever and could not repeated. Other than the thought of the baby inside me that would bring some warmth to my heart, I am totally cold towards him, I no longer eat anything he buys for me, I don't take any presents from him and I stopped talking to him. From the moment I signed on that piece of paper, marriage and love had vanished from my heart.Sometimes, hubby will try to come into the bedroom, but when he walks in, I will walk out to the living room. He had no choice but to sleep in mother'sroom. At night, from his room, I can hear light sounds of groaning, I keptquiet. This used to be his trick; last time, whenever I ignore him, he would fake illness and I will surrender and find out what is wrong with him, hewould then grab me and laugh. He has forgotten that last time; I cared forhim and am concerned because there is love, but now, what is there betweenus?Hubby's groaning came on and off continuing all the way till baby was born.Almost everyday, he would buy something for the baby, infant products, children products and books that kids like to read. Bags and bags of it stacked inside his room till it is full. I know he is trying to use this to reach out to me, but I am no longer moved by his actions. He has no choice but to lock himself in his room and I can hear his typing away on his computer keyboard, maybe he is now addicted to web surfing, but none of that matters to me anymore.It was sometime towards the end of spring in the following year, one late night, I screamed because of a sudden stomach pain, hubby came rushing into the room, its like he did not change and sleep, and had been waiting for this moment. He carried me and ran down the stairs, stopped a car, holding my hand very tightly and kept wiping the sweat off my brown, throughout thejourney to the hospital. Once we reached the hospital, he carried me andhurried into the delivery suite. Lying on the back of his skinny but warmth body, a thought crossed my mind: In my lifetime, who else would love me as much as he did?He held the delivery suite door opened and watch me go in, his warm eyes caused me to managed a smile at him despite my contraction pain.Coming out of the delivery room, hubby looked at our son, and me, his eyes tear with joy and he kept smiling. I reached out and touched his hand. Hubbylooked at me, smiling and then he slowly collapsed onto the floor. I cried out for him in pain... He smiled, but without opening that tired eyes of his... I had thought that I would never shed any tear for him, but the truth is, I have never felt a deeper pain cutting through my body at that moment.Doctor said that by the time hubby discovered he had liver cancer, it was already in terminal stage and it was a miracle that he managed to last thislong. I asked the doctor when did he first discover he had cancer? Doctor said about 5 months ago and consoled me saying: "Prepare for his funeral." Idisregarded the nurse's objection and rushed home, I went into his room and checked his computer, and a suffocating pain hits me.Hubby's cancer was discovered 5 months ago, his groaning was real, and I had thought that... the computer showed over 200 thousand words he wrote for ourson: "Son, just for you, I have persisted, to be able to take a look at you before I fall, is my biggest wish now... I know that in your life, you will have many happiness and maybe some setbacks, if only I can accompany you throughout that journey, how nice would it be. But daddy now no long has that chance. Daddy has written inside here all the possible difficulties and problems you may encounter during your lifetime, when you meet with these problems, you can refer to daddy's suggestion... Son, after writing these 200 thousand words, I feel as if I have accompanied you through your life journey. To be honest, daddy is very happy. Do love your mother, she has suffered, she is the one who loves you most and also the one who loves me most..."From play school to primary school, to secondary, university, to work and even in dealing with questions of love, everything big and small was written there.Hubby has also written a letter for me:"My dear, to marry you is my biggest happiness, forgive me for the pain I have caused you, forgive me for not telling you my illness, because I want to see you be in a joyful mood waiting for the arrival of our baby... My dear, if you cried, it means that you have forgiven me and I would smile, thank you for loving me... These presents, I'm afraid I cannot give them to our son personally, could you help me to give some of them to him every year, the dates on what to give when are all written on the packaging..."Going back to the hospital, hubby is still in coma. I brought our son over and place him beside him. I said: "Open your eyes and smile, I want our son to remember being in the warmth of your arms..." He struggled to open his eyes and managed a weak smile. Our son still in his arms was happily waving his tiny hands in the air. I press the button on the camera and the sound of the shutter rang thought the air as tears slowly rolled down my face...The end...Remember this, and keep it to your heart. Love has itsown time, its own seasons, and its own reason forcoming and going. You cannot bribe it or coerce it, orreason it into staying. You can only embrace it when it arrives and give it away when it comes to you..

Touching righT? ^^






Bless me bA..hahaZ! I must work hard le!! After the test, went tO sectionals with Joanne. Hmmm...everyone was feeling super tired today. No idea why. THen I went to errr..TIong Bahru together with Ah beng, Meng, Chermaine, Cindy, Wai Chin and Rebecca. Ate Long John's Silver for lunch..and went hunting for my formal clothes. I chose my clothes quite quickly cos' it was already around 4pm and we still had 2 places to gO to. Got my clothes...but not my court shoes..hUmph. Nvm~ Ah Beng went off foR his SWS practice, Meng went home, Wai Chin went to meet someone. So left the 4 of us. Hmmm..I saw the reverse bungee at Clarke QuaY!!! CoOL! Looks sO fun~ Wahaha..but I think sky dIving would be better.. =x Then we were in a shop choosing tIes...HumPH!!! Chermaine remembered I bought my formal clothes..She tOld me wear it and I was being used as a....a..guiNea pig? HahaZ! They tested lots of different coLoured tIes on me..aHh...1 hr later, I became super stony. Hmm..Rebecca went off after 1 hr. 3 of us, still stuck at the same shOp though. Yawns. Around 6pm, went off le. Bought golden yellow tie..eeKs..SO biG! I duno wad will happen if i wear it..Then went to City Hall..waited for Jiawei..she wanted tO go to Orchard to meet her friends..yawnS..*feeling sleePy now* HahaZ. Then bought packed foOd home..hMmm..My bag was filled with my clothes, and I was holding my clarinet and books for the whole afternoon. Very tired le. Put my things at home..wash uP..then went ouT to meet Danny le. He's even more crapPy today..=x Anyway, we decided to walk around..Who knows, we walked until errr..sOmewhere near HillvIew..ya~ HahaZ. Super far...and he was very tIred to carrY on walking..sO we turned back lOoking for a way to go back to Central. AIya...in conclusion, we ended up walking rounds and roUnds and ROUNDs. Hahaz!!! Horrible ah..walked the longest distance todaY..I'm feeling so tired now..can't continue le. ><






Awwwww...I missed my blOg!!!! HahaZ. DIdn't update foR ages again. Ok..curious on what I've been dOing these few days? Lolx~ Band practicE loh~ Lolx! And busy studying for tests, doing hw, etc. Got 2 tests back so far and my grade are 2 Cs..wah..horrible alphabet. Why must my grades take the first letter of my name? *sObs* Went back to fuhua the day befOre with Meng..hMmm..we were playing Ross Roy..buT..many people were absent. Hmm...the tone was kinda horriblE with so few people plaYing..Meng and I played until quite koYak also cos' we had lots of band practices latelY. Tired~ Went home after band..Hmmmm...aNd tOday...Stats tEst...HORrIBle!!! I know how to dO the questions!!!! BUt!!! I'm so blur..........................I got the numbers wrong...over 20 marks flew away! ><><><><






Stupid tHing..rIght now having a horrible gastric pain. Grrrrr..I'm in Stats computer class now.. Hmm..The teacher don't care about what we are dOIng? Lolx. Anyway, yesterday something creepy happened. Peiwen, Siying, A lecturer, another person and I were in the lift. Everything was peaceful and quiet at first. Then suddenly, a woman started screamIng. ScReaming and sCreaMing at the top of her lungs~ We were all staring at each other. And the same question appeared on our faces. "Is it someone outside plaYing?" Hmm..but it can't be. Cos' she screamed for like 3mins continuouS non-stoP..grr...hair stands. After schoool went home for piano lesson. So tired until I didn't do any homework at all. Was practically stoning at home. Hmm..Slept really early. STupid tuMmyachE. I got tO go le..bTH...Band practice until quite late later..don't think can update today liao..yawnS..sO many people staring at wad I'm typing now..sIans..alrIght gtg~ Tata~






Haven't update the blog for such a long long timE..Hmm...I'm basically busY in schoOl. Very very busY.. Almost every alternate day alsO BAnd, band, BAND! Then projects are all crashing on me..Everytime meeting and meetIngs and MEETINGS!!! THen it's like notHing is done much frm the meetings de. ZZ. WASTe time lOr...siAns..sO tired now. REached home at 11pm. DOing research foR project...tata~






In business course, I learn Econs..In Econs lecture, I learn about makIng choices..Life is about makIng choices everyday. Everytime when u make choices for the best alternative, something will be sacrificed and this is called the opportunity cost. Now, I have a make a super difficult decision aGAIN!!!! GRrrrrr...I have a band camp on 3rd seP to 7th Sep..Then just nice astrO MersIng triP is frm 7th to 9th of SeP...arrrrr..actually I planned tO go to the band camp until 6th of SeP then I gO home and rest before going to MersIng the nxt daY. But that biRd flu changed my whole family's view of letting me to gO to MersIng..GRRRR. IRrItated!!!! But I wanna gO band camP.....at the same timE I don't wanna miss astrO cos' the sky in msia is sOooo nice..gRrr..I'll think about this later ba..stupid opportunity cosT. ZZ.

ANyway, after school yesterday, which was around 1pm, Joanne(frm commonwealth) had notHing tO do. So we went to the band roOm really early and started practising frm 2pM onwards. Lolx! We practised until around 5.30pm then more yr 1s started practising toO. Hmmm. We only took 15mins for our dinner cos' we have tO perform a section ensemble..Kan cHiONg!!! Then all of us practised and practised for 10mins after our dinner. But flute section came out frm the band roOm le!!! Oh nO..that means it was our turN. Lolx! All of us went in..Hmm..Cindy and I were the only 3rd clarInetists..Our section played mOon river..consists of 4 parts..When Cindy and I were playing solo, both of us needa "chuan qi"...cos' we held the note toO long..But it became abit lou fenG..><" And our whole section played until realLy messy..Cos' everyone has different parts..the sectional leader is not allowed tO conduct also..So it's really difficult to coordinate altogether. Hmm...anyway, the feeling is like Singapore Idol. HahaZ. Cos' all of us were standing in front of 2 judges, namely Mr Tan (our conductor) and Woeilun (our student conductor)..Hmm...after listening to the comments that Mr Tan gave, we went outsidE for sectionals..Then practised, and practised, aND prACtIsed..Tired* Until around 9.30pm then we stoPped playing..zZ..I had ITAB test todaY. *Sighs* Computer de..tHink I'm going to fail le...hahaZ. Do toO slow no time to fInish..sIans..After school went to Causeway point with Siying to study PAcc foR this saturday's test. WOOTs! That place rox! THe library sUPer quiet maNz..Rox!!! CooL place tO studY!! There are places tO sit everywhere. Lolx! Frm 3.30pm we studied until 5pm..Ke lian de Siying..her mama in hosPital...hMmm..then on the way home, I slept in the train...wah piAng...head kePt dropping and drOpping..I was sleePing frm Woodlands stOp until buKit gOmbak..tHen suddenly jerked awake by the traIn..whew..really tired now..got to study again later..didn't managed to study finisH..hMmm..tata~






I need a break...Need it sO much. Didn't go out and play fOr 2 months le..Never even watcH the movies that I wanted tO watch. >< Everyday my life is revolving around band, astro, homework, studies, projects. So tiRed..EverytIme reached home sO late...Then always do my hw until midnight 3 to 4am..I realLy wanT tO reST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!






Yawnz..I'm so tiRed..hahaZ. Anyway now is the 7th lunar month..Abit scared scared cos' tmr got band practice until quite latE. So most probably won't be updating tomorrow. Hmm..alrIght. Got woken up by koR, Mabel + KuanyeE's phone call to go to Mabel's house to studY. Dots de..Reached there, after completing only qn 1a) , I requested to watch Spirited Away. As a result, everyone ended up watcHing! HahaZ! Even Kuan YeE alsO!! Lolx!!! Rox!! HahaZ. But I still can't find the vCd.. Lolx! Bth~ AhHHh..shoRt entry noW..cos' I'm very tired lE. Long daY tomoRrow..Gd luck tO me! NIteZ!






Wad is the time now? 3am..Zz. So tired..haven't even bathE.. ALL becos of CLARENCE YEONG! Compose soNg la!! Compose more...ZZ. So tired le..Today morning got 2 tests..I was supposed to wake up at 7.20am to study with my friends..But I woke up late!!!! HorrIble..8am den woke up, feeling sO tired..rusHed to schoOl..Zz. Didn't even studIed finish. WooTs! In the midst of the Econs test, the teacher went out..Then Sugi he didn't know wad was saline solution..Then he asked me..hahaZ! So hoRrible. Lalalala. Ok..I think I'll do fine for Econs..Then we walked all the way to the other side of SP for another test later..MOB. ZZ! Ate Macdonald's and we were abit lost while trying to find the lecture hall. Lolx! Hmmm..The test was horribLE. The teacher really NEVER use brain lOR!!! Lolx! Before we stepped in, we saw the test papers on the chairs le..and he just told us to sat down..So our class were staring at the qns for the paper..While waiting for other classes to come, we were discussing about the questions..!! WOOts!! Project work woR!!!! Lolx! Alright..thought the definitions are all ok..But when I was doing the paper, sO horrIBle!!! The examples were so difficult to find in the artIcle...ZZ!!! Might fail..hahaZ!!! Then after Mob test, I heard that sectionals for band was cancelled..So Sugi, Ronny, Peiwen, Siying + Weiyi came tO my house. Went to West Mall to eat..hMmm..Weiyi said he wanted tO go home to slP. Dots dE. Nvm~ I understand..cOs' he bai ka..Lolx! =x Then the others came..dId that project the whole afternOon..grr..i very tired now le..batHing time~






OMg! I just came back frm schOol. Very busY in school nowadays..and alsO due the frequent band practices, I almost have no time to dO my hw and study for my tests. There are 2 tests tmr and I haven't studied fOr it. So coOl..Then actually only Ronny, Siying + Peiwen are coming tO my house to do that Idea project. (Peiwen suggested de) Then I duno how did Wanwan & friends know about it. Then they wanna come alsO. ZZ! My house very big dE....can squeezE 10 ppL in my study rM de. Zz. And I just realised that I'm soOO stupid. Lolx! Cos' it was like one montH ago..Danny asked me if I know a girl named Joanne..Her class was just besidE mine..Then I said I duno. But all alOng I know her. How stUpid. Lolx! Cos' she joined band alsO..a very prO clarinetist..Then it's like I always see her during lectures cos' her class is always in the same lecture hall as mine..And only until today I realised that she's Danny's friend. So stupId. Lolx! Oh no..cannot update further le..2 tests tmr and I haven't studY yet!!! Bye BYE!!!!






Tired le lehZ...Reached home at 10.45pm yesterday. Hmmmm..Kinda horriblE. Yesterday was already really tired in schoOl. After school, rushEd home for piaNo. OmG.. HOrrible..on the way home I went tO West Mall to look for my spirited away vCd..HaiZ. Still no stocK..Then I bought a brownie frm coffee bean for Kuan Yee to eat.. Cos' she was going to my house to do homework together with my kor.. HahaZ. Reached home...hardly rested yet..5mins later, "Ding dOng!!!!" Omg.. I thought it was MabeL..Who knows it's actually my piano teacher. Faints* Then play until yi ta hU tu!!! Lolx! HMmm..after piano I did only just abit of MoB..then rushed back to schoOl for band. See the clarinetists eating diNner..hahaZ.. THey are really super crappY people..Lolx. But they rOx la.. HahaZ! Band practice was abit tough for me..cos' I just changed my reed to 3.5...Played for like only 5 bars and I'm tired le. HahaZ..!! Imagine how many songs we played yesterday!!! Merry widow, Ms SaigOn, American GraphattI, etc. Zz. Went home together with Meng theY all...Studied until 2am..That's it. Hahaz. RIght now still in com laB. SO sian...hahaZ..tHink I should be slping in class later le ba. Lolx. This tHursday goT band again. YawNz.....






Hmmm..Yesterday, was dOing hw at homE. THen Mabel came to our house around hmm..5pm. Then we lefT around 7pm fOr espLanade. WaH. So manY people at City HalL StatIOn. Zz! HahaZ. BUt when we were on the escalator, we turned back and see the number of pEople...BTh!! So mANY!!! Lolx! Then walked tO near Esplanade there. Frm 8pm we waited until 8.30. Lolx! THen fInallY got fireworks. Quite cHIo. It lasted for only 5mins I guess. Hmm..but the fireworks made my skirt vibrated. HahaZ! IMpacT toO strOng! THen after this we went to the HmV shop to look for Spirited Away vCd.. GrRRrrrr..no more stOck. Sighs* Then went tO ks house for BBq. Zzz. Von, Ct, Lt, Ks one whole group together agaIn. Always lefT me out de. Den nvM. I stoOd up frm the table and went over to the bBQ pit to PeNg food together with Qi, Nix, Kor & Nic. This grP better. Wahahaha! Then after eating, we went to walk arounD. Then that ah KoR...duno y teach him jaP he alwayS can't master that sentence. HAhaZ! THen we played with the boOk of answers alsO. After that went to kS rm and taLk lOh. Hmmm..seems like he gOt a new targEt le. MakIng hand-made tHings fOr ger. AiseH..I duNo shoUld I be hapPY foR him or be saD ah. Lolx. Think all the tHIngs that I've gIven tO him is gonna be in the cupboard together with the BobDog in a matter of tIme. HahaZ. AnywaY, slept at 5am yesterday again. So horrIble. Doing hw ma. Later I'm gonna travel around Sg to find my spirited away vcd? HahaZ. I dUno. See fIrst ba. Tata..and HapPY NatIonal DaY! *Is it hapPy for me?* Lolx!






Hmmm..wokE up at 830am. But went back tO sleep. But I really wanna gO to Blue Cross. So I didn't slp anY loNger. HahaZ. GoT woken uP by yiQi alsO. Kuan yEe doing hW on my study tablE. So fast!! ThEn I toOk bus there. Hmmm. So sUper prO. I reached there at 10.15am when I'm suPposed tO reach at 9.30am. WooO. THen they were dancIng todaY. So I just sat arounD and watcH. Then after that we played the caterpillar thIngy...walk around in circlEs..Then Qi camE! Weeee. Lolx! But a ger suddenLy pullEd me tO dance with her. Wah piAng. Her dancIng xI baO so gd..Lolx! Den it was a cha cha sonG. Zz. ANd she kept turnIng me round and round until I was really diZzy. HahaZ! Then Qi's father came in here toO. Lolx! He was looking around and he kepT saying that it was very meaningfUl. Lolx! THen he sent me to jE librarY! So gd!!! Hahaz! Somemore the car so biG! Lolx!!! Even gavE me a free drInk. HahaZ! I reached there around 11.20am. Then I sat in the cafe for 2 mins waitIng foR kor, kY & mAbel. Went tO the toilet to wash mY hands and when I came ouT, Kor reached le. WAH. SO fast! HaHaz! THen we went to the teenagers section to dO our work. Omg..fULl everywhere. Selfish peoPLe. Some of them toOk the beanies and puT their bAg. Zzz!!! Then we managed tO share a "table" with 2 nice gers. Hmmm. Sat there doing hw for around 3 hrs and I saw quite a number of peoplE! Lolx! It was Alex at first, then I saw Sylvia, Ye xIong, Amelia, Sandra, and err...Aiya. ForgoT le. Zz. Kuan yeE brought the book of answers..IT was TERRIBLe. HahaZ. Cos' it answers all the qns that u ask..So terrIble..When everyone has questions to ask, we lOok for that bOok. Lolx!! Around 3pm, the library is suddenly filLed with musIc. ZZ! Hip hOP + abIt of Metal sonGs somemore. But a few songs were nice thOugh. But stilL, it's a library! Lolx! THen Mabel and others couldn't concentrate any lOnger. So we went tO Mabel's hOuse. When Mabel asked the bOok of ans, " Should they gO to my house to dO our hw?" It saYs "Quick... stop all ur foOling and moaNing around." It's something like that dE. And we were shoCked. Cos' it was not really friendlY. HahaZ. Then went to her house. Did our hw for like only half an hour then have tO go le. Kor goT tuition. So kuan yEe and I ate our dinner at jP. And I went to 2 musIc stores to lOok for the sPirited Away VcD. GRrrrr...NO stoCK! ZZ! Then we went tO eat Anderson's icE cream toO. NIce! Lolx~ Then went hOme le. Grrr...bOoks soooOO hEavY! My feet hurts so much now..partly because of the slippers I'm wearing and alsO the distance that I've walked for the past 1 montH. TIred. HoMewOrk tIme.!






Omg OMG!!! I can't believe this!!! Ever since I watched SpirIted Away on Thursday nIght, at 11pm on ChannEl 8, I can't stop dreaming about it. Wahahahaha! It's soOOoo sweet. Chihiro & HakU. Anyway, lOok at the tIMe nOW!!! TerrIble..hahaZ. FOr the past 2 hrs I've been trying to resiZe a very nice pic of a scene in Spirited Away and everytHing..bUt it seems impossiBle..grrr. Nvm..Came back really late frm Astro todaY. Hmm..lessons were finE and Astro was fUn!! Haha. Chat with the same gAng in Astro for one whole niTe. Ppl like Kenneth, Kun lOong, Von, Meng, Junxian, JoeffreY. Meng & Junxian finally come after disappearing for 2 weeks. Lolx! So nice. Did abit of observation..then we were listening to Mr Aw's storY. WoW! He went to ALL the cemeteries to observe the sky before!!! Cos' he said they were the darkest place..Omg OmG!!! HahaZ! I can't dO that...*no courage* Lolx! Then after this we went to Fc 5. Hmmm. They were celebrating all the August "babies" birthday. THen the seniors started playing with snowspray. Zz. I was watching LUlu jie spraying someone else when suddenly that Anthony crept up behind me anD..."Psssssssssssssssssssssssssssssst" WAH piANg!!! My bLack shirt become purPle cOloUR...ZZZ! Even my hair and my arm also purpLe colour. ZZ. But they told me the colour of the spray goes well with the pics on my shirt and my hairband. HahaZ! ALrIghT!!! TOo late le! Have tO sleeP soON!!!! 3am le lehZ. Tmr waking up at 830am..Blue cRoss!! AlriGht! NiteZ! Oh ya. Below is a suMmary of SpiriTed Away...^^







It seems such a peaceful daY to me buT I guess I'm wrong yet again. ><" Woke up at 6.30am becos of the alarm clOck. Kor la! Zz. Went to schooL feeling really tired and sIck. But no choice. That's life right? Lolx. 1st 3hrs of Itab lessons were alrigHt. Using com, so I'm not feeling sleepY. HahaZ! But the next 2 hrs of lecture, I don't know wad was going on. I was slEePing..REALLY SLEEPING!!! Grrrr. Usually when I'm tired, I'll try not to close my eyes and do my very best not to dozE off. But this time, bth. I slePt..and for the whole blur blur 2 hrs, I had no idea wad were the lecturers talking abouT. Die. Lolx! Then after school, SiYing wanted to eat pizzA again. Lolx. So we called Wanwan, Ronnie, Sugi and Weiyi alOng. Who knows on the way there, someone suggested asking other classmates to eat with us. (I forgOt who) Then that Weiyi..zZ. Absent for 2 weeks cos' he sprained his feet. Ever since he came back to school on Monday, he was limping all the way. Then just now while walking to piZza hut..no one helPed hIm. So I be his supPort lorZ. Ke lian~ walk until so xin ku~ Lolx! After we reached the piZza not long, Teresa's grP came and jOined us. She broughT her friend with her toO. Wah. Looks like a MalaY but actually is a pure Chinese. Lolx! Hmmm. Had a very very filLing lunch. But when we were settling our bills (12 of us were there), John and Jolene clashed yet again. ><" Not really sure wad's going on. I only know that there's abit of misunderstanding over the coUpons. Then Melvin didn't know that he had tO pay $$ for it. AccordinG to Jolene, she's not very hapPy with John cos' he didn't explain to Mel wad was gOing on. Then I guess she's abit sarcastIc to John. John became realLy unhapPy. He told Teresa "One more tIme....." Not sure wad else he told Teresa. Then Teresa's gRp went outside the piZza huT. Guess they were waiting for Jolene's bf cos' all of them were still outsiDe. Then John kept staring at them. I guess he was reallY angRy. Then 5mins later Jolene came back in, threw her bag on the chair and askEd John somethIng. Oops I forgoT le. They started quarelLing. *So fierce* Only one phrase is reflected on John's and Jolene's faces at that time. "Want to fight, come la!" Wah. I can't go out and pulL Jolene cos' Weiyi is blockIng. Lolx! Lucky Wanwan soccer match is cancelled. He came back to the piZza hut just in time to stoP John frm fighting with Jolene. XioNg. Jolene's bf gave John the I-want-to-beat-u-up face. ><"" Then that group went outsidE. Wanwan tried talkinG to John but I think he was toO angry to listen to anytHing that Wanwan saId. After a few rounds of persuading, I talked to John abit. Stared right into his eyes. Scary..fIlled with anger, hatred, dark...Just realLy scarY. Abit scared but I still managed to get the words out of my moutH. HahaZ~ Then we went outside alsO. That group was sittinG at the left, while we were sitting at the riGht. Wah. Looked like 2 gangs wanna fight liddat. Lolx! But I'm neutral. Lolx! Ended up talking lots of sense into John...then kept laughIng at Wan waN cos' everyone kept using Wan wan as an example. "E.g We don't like Wanwan. But what can wanwan dO to us?" But of course he knew we were kidding. Lolx! Then that Weiyi..gRrr. Bth~ Ankle broke still can talk sO much. Told me to talk to Jolene. I just chatted with her on msn. Hope wad I said makes sense to her ba. Grrrr. Then that Weiyi, really have a complicated backgroUnd. Then duno y kepT calling me mummy...!!!!!???!!!!! Zz!!! Even toOk my bag and don't let me gO home. Zz. After 10mins managed to take my bag and "run" to the mrt statioN. Reached home so late. I was still planNing to sleep de. Guess no more naP for me. SigHs* Alright dinnertimE.






CoughS* SnIffs* Wah piAng..sO busY foR the whole daY!!! Don't think I can recover from my cough + flu. I can't believe it mANz!!! Grrrr. TOday is Wednesday leHZ!!! THe shortest day in schOol. But yet, I'm in school until 10pm. ZZz! Band lOrz. HahaZ! Decided tO go with my passIon. HahaZ. SchoOl was alrigHt todaY. After school we did our Ec project at the library. But we ended up chatting instead of discussIng. Zz. Precious time wasted. Lolx! Everyone no mood tO do project I guess. *Anyway, I'm sucking the 3.5 reed noW!* Wahaha!!! Want to change to somethiNg higher..hOpe I'll play better ba. Hmm. After my grOup members went our separate ways, I went to Fc 5 and waiTed for Meng. 3Pm..I sit there and dO my hw. Told MenG to coMe to FC 5. But he reacHed at 3.50pm. *_* YuaN laI he's sIck woR..*AlErT!!!* Lolx! Then we went tO the band roOm...KopE score and plAy. MenG was teacHing me the easier pieCe..Zz..Can't take the more difficult piece cos' they don't alLow. Y liddat ah? ><"" So I sight read lOrz. Lolx. Then went for dInner with other first yr clarinetists.. Got Candice, Edmund, Juliet, Stella, Alicia, and another 2 guys duno wad name dE. Ahhh..CraZy pEople. Lolx!!! Then after diNner went tO combine. Grrrr..Actually I shared score with CandiCe de. THen gOt one gUy frm 1st clarinet came to 2nd. Zz!!!! Nvm. I shared score with a 2nd yr ger, Samantha. Then that gUy sO diao one lehZ!! Kept complaining 2nd clarinet the notes toO low..noT fun..Then when the conductor is talking, he kept practising. NOIsy loRz. And also, when the conductor told us to blow warm uP, I know it's very tiring..But he don't have to keep saYing lame here lame there de rIte? Build up tONe MA! Dots de..his technique is gd..His tone..alrighT la. Lolx~ Better then me. I must go brush up liaO. HaiYoz. Then ensemble coming. Mr Tan saiD that he's going to listen to every single one of us. Kan cHIong! I 1st time see score lehZ. Then Wednesday he want to hear one by one plAY!!! ><"" AiyA. DOn't talk lE. I'm very tired now. Tmr have to wake up at 6.50am. Grrr. NiteZ.
*the time now is 12.45am..hAhaZ! But I cheat abiT..i Put 11:59 cos' I want the daTe to be WedenesdaY! =x*






Wah..yesterday one whole day at homE. Practically NO voice to talk at all. HahaZ! COughed and coughed like craZy. Then fUhua having a foOd fair..Awww..tOo bad I can't gO. Lolx! Was doing my tutorials for the whole day until 7pm. Then mummY told me to watch the channel U show at 7pm. Xi yuAn lu..Nice lehZ!!! Lolx! Then went to see the doctor...waH~ He gave me so many different tablets..gRrrr..hate medicines. Then for the whole nighT, Peiwen and I was online talking about how to do the presentation tmr. Zzz. Told Sugi to do the powerpoint presentation..But it was done sOoo horribly. >< Both of us did the most work again I guess.

HaIz. SoooO many projects tO do. Just came back from schoOl. We are supposed to hand in a proposal for Ec module..and for Idea, we are suPposed to do another powerpoint presentation..Grrrrrr..But luckily one is due on nxt friday, the other is next next mondaY. >< THe Idea presentation was alrIght..aHh..I'm feeling reallY tired now..gonNa revise my work later cos' I haven't even touched my lecture notes before..Everyone's studYing except mE!!!! Lolx. And this is sooO terrible..I want to jOin the band..buT their practices are very hIong nowadays cos' the concert is cominG. And one bad thIng is...I saw the score once. It's actually alrigHt..they are not runnIng notes..but because of the tempo, we have to "ruN" throughout the whole song. Grrrr. Meng practised for one month already and he told me alot of people still can't get it. HUh....den if I go for the concert which is in 1 month's time, I = Die? Should I join the band? HumPh...if i join the band I have to sacrifice Blue cross on wed. Awwww..But I want to imprOve myself lehZ. So I guess I'll join ba. Lolx!!! Ook..have tO go do my work. Tata~






*Cough couGhs* AhhH. TerrIble terrIble. Wanted tO spend a daY hapPily with MabEl and friends at the conCert. But I ended uP talking sO little becos of my stUpid throat. ><><>< After dinner we were on our way to Esplanade. Stupid koR. ThougH he's noT as tall as some guYs, but I have no idea whY he can walk sO fast. Zz. Nvm. I love this "gang" alOt. Wahahaha! Very cOmfortable with them. But shoRt of Meng rIte? Lalalala. After settlIng our tickets, we went to the concert hall le. 2nd time I went there. Hmm. But this time we sat realLy hIgh uP! Lolx. Can't even see the faces of the perfOrmers. Mr Lim was one of the perfOrmers. WoOts! Ntu alumNi lehZ! ^^ The concert was realLy nice. HeeZ. THe tone they have are alL so "rIch"! Lolx! They even inviTed Darren Seah & Amy Cheng to sing a few songs alOng with the banD. WoOts! Didn't see Darren Seah in acTion for a lOng long timE! Lolx! Nice vOices! ^^ We went for suPper after the performance. HahAz! Ate maggI mee. Awwww. I'm cravIng for stingraY. Wahaha~ CaughT the last train fortunately. Ahh. Think I'm gonna see a dOc tmr le. Can't stand my throat any lOnger. And duno wad's the prb with my tUmmY~ Lalala..tutorial tIme!! Lolx! Pig kor slPing on the flOor again. Haven't even had his batH..YUCks!!! Lolx!