The previous post made me remember some of my childhood memories. Everyone of us will look like a nerd in a certain phase of our lives. Think about it. I look like one when I was 10 years old...

"Eh bookworm never bring book today ah?", "her results so good because she bookworm ma", "everytime do homework, we don't even do one!", "read what book? you only know how to read book only. throw away la".. These are some of the comments that I'd received from my family over the years. Though I showed no signs that I was hurt, but I am..inside. Is reading not a good hobby? Is reading a crime? Is reading BAD? I believe most of you out there do read novels too?

Interesting novels/story books just bring me to a world of my own. I love it. I tend to bring with me fantasy story books and uncompleted homework to my grandma's house during the weekends when I was young cos' there was nothing to do there. Weekends are the only time for me to do work as I hated doing work during weekdays. It's just so tiring. Besides, I'll never leave any homework uncompleted cos' I'm afraid that teachers would scold me. When they do, I'll cry. I don't know why. I guess I'm afraid of anyone who scolds me. That's just me. So, gradually I became a girl who had low self esteem, inferiority complex, zero confidence, very anti-social, quiet and timid.

When my cousins played pranks on me, I'll cry. And they'll ask "why u cannot take jokes one?". Sarcastic remarks built up in me and over time I couldn't take it. So that's the main reason why I used to be such a crybaby. Maybe I'm still a crybaby now, who knows? =x

"Eh mei why your bf look so nerdy one?" This statement justifies that my family judge others based on their looks. NO WONDER I was being called a nerd when I was young. Cos' I LOOKED like one. Secondary school changed my life altogether. Without my very noisy and irritating friend Hadi, I guess I'll still keep everything to myself. Without my best friend Yi Fan who introduced me to a world of reading, I'll still be a very narrow-minded person now. Without my best shopping partner Shu Qi, perhaps I won't even know where's Orchard Road! Without my ex boyfriend Kok Seng, I guess I won't be able to experience the terrible feeling of suicidal and perhaps I won't be able to love my present boyfriend that much. Without my bestie von, I don't think I will still be existing in this world. Ahahaha!

I hope these stuff won't sound like crap to you. Ahhhhhhhh. I feel so much better now. xD